One thing I have been struggling a lot with recently is a lack of motivation. It is not that this term is particularly hard at this moment—or at least it wouldn’t be if I could bring myself to keep up with my work—but I’m finding it hard right now to remember how to enjoy what I do. I have interesting classes, good professors, I enjoy my music, and I even like the winter weather. But it is all too easy to forget that.
For lent this year, I am cutting down on the time I spend procrastinating on the internet. Yes, I know that I will soon have many other means of procrastination and I will probably waste just as much time as before. But it is my hope that by spending less time passively staring at a screen, I will be able to renew my interest in the world around me. My goal for this Lent is to take a good look at my life and remember what it is that I love about physics, about music, and about so many other parts of my life that have become just another thing to check off my to do list.
I don’t think this will be an easy Lenten discipline, and to be honest I really hope it isn’t. The outtripping program I worked at for many summers had the motto Embrace the Challenge, a motto I have been trying to live up to for years. So this Lent I will be praying for strength to truly embrace the challenge and see beauty in the parts of my life I have taken for granted for too long.